feeling spontaneous

Once again, Im sitting right in front of the middle night of my laptop taiping, feeling spontaneous. What comes into the mind, words will be written out. I put my assignment aside, I didnt wanna stress myself out. Telling myself, "everything will be fine", "hang in there!"

I never was a great leader, never was. But Im trying to hold my own principle. I trying to live my life to the fullest, not with any girlfriends but with the bunch of college mate and the primary school friends Im about to meet them soon enough. 18 years old sounds so old for the young ages around 13-16, isnt it? At least, when ppl asked you "how old are you?" You answered "18th" you felt... starting to step the outside world. Facing the real reality which you never meet in high school.

I have to admit, I no longer that 16-17 years old high school kid. I am a 18 years old adult teen. Well, attitude still being childish, thats what I never gonna deny. Fooling around like a monkey! Crapping around with the college mates I knew not more than 6 months.

Credits to Esther Tan

I hate saying goodbye, that feels.... sad and hurt in the sense. Once in awhile, what crosses in my mind was, I wanna remain the same and high school will never end. I'll still able to run on the field. I'll still can pass the basketball to my mate on the court. I'll still able to have a peek on her. I'll still can hang with the gangs in the reading corner. I had to face the truth and fact that, these no longer remains but carried on. =]

Photos and pictures taken to note down as a mark of existence. Tells you something did happened. When you look back through, it gaves you a needle in your heart screaming "I missed those day so much." Sometimes, we tried not to think much about the future. We just wanted whats right in front of us. The moment that you wished never gone fade eventually will happen. Just let the flow goes and you realized its been awhile.

There's something you wished to keep, but it just slipped through your finger tip. Trying to catch it, but the feelings werent different anymore. People said, "let time passed, and sooner or later you'll forget the past."

I didnt wanna add on so much. Like I said, I just feeling spontaneous. Speaking out from my heart.
I never really was good in anything. Not even designing Im into now. =]
I just want to be normal now.
After graduated from college in next few years.
Off I go to oversea, in kolot way saying, pursue my dreammmmmmmm... HAHA!

That's long way go still. I mentioned this in my presentation that, "No one gonna know what happens tomorrow, so why not cherish the moment you had right in front of you now before it fades..."

"If God gave you shit, you clean the shit"

Time is 1.25am now. Signing off.