have you ever thought?

Firstly, I feel like sharing these with you people whoever is reading my blog now...
just keep this post in your mind always and be grateful for everything you have now...
Im just trying to give you a picture and enlightenment...

I almost cry after I had a long long talk with my mum just now..
I dont rmb since when I sit down for 2 hours to chat with my mum...
I actually love talking with my mum...
she's like a friend of mine, a teacher, a mentor and a counselor to me...
we talked almost everything, and Im like a small child in her eyes.. always
cuz I always share things with her... school life, friends, problems, everything...
and she always helped me solve my problems...
she never leave when I need her the most... she cheer me up...

Suddenly my mum talked bout life experiences to me...
I listened, every word she said... cuz I dont know when I will have a chance like this again..
sit down talking and laughing with her...
and I started to recall back ever since Im still a small kid...
the moment you spend with your family, when was the last time?

u know, life is so short, you just wouldnt know what's going to happen tomorrow or next...
can you ever imagine your current age?
rmb the first time you celebrate your birthday bash?
rmb when your mum held your hands when you were small, scared you get lost?
rmb when you share your problems with your mum?
rmb when was the first time you made a birthday card for your mum?
rmb when was the last time you mad at your mum because she dont get you your favourite toy?
rmb when was the last time your mum used a cane and chase u?
rmb when was the last time your mum hug you in arms?
rmb when was the last time you told your mum "I love you, mum..."

we all grown up... from a baby to teen and later to adult...
and you just dont realised actually time passed so fast than you thought...
when you just 7 years old, you kept wished that you grow up fast...
and when you had grown up, you said, "time passed so fast... too fast"
and elders slowly one by one leaving you... your closest relative..
have you ever wonder what will you become one day?

I felt so abashed and ashamed to myself...
Im self reproach right now...
you soon realised when time is short, how you wished time will turned around...
my mum told me, she saw an advertisement picturing a girl holding a soft toy running around house area..
she said, its like reflecting her childhood when she was small..
grandmother used to dressed up my mum with pretty dresses and tied a ponytail...
and now...? A mother to 5 children

I suddenly turned so down after that...
everyone start to leave... one by one...
I wonder hows life going to be...
elder sister reached age for marry... with 7 years old elder than me
giving limit in next 5 years...
I might having a elder brother in law... who knows?
and in the next 5 years... I turned 22, what is my life going to be that time?
what bout yours? have you ever thought?

5 years time, all of us might going separated ways...
5 years time, who knows we dont recognize each other anymore?
5 years time, who ever imagine your best friend married?
5 years time, who's gonna leave you next?

appreciate every minute, every moment in life...
you just dont know what's happening next...
its fate you are a child to your parents now...
its fate you and your brother sister are siblings now...
its fate you born in this family...
my mum told me these...

say thank you for everything to your parents...
a simple hug will make them feel comfort...
they love you like always... they always do
no matter how wilful you are...
...cuz you are an apple in their eyes

Im glad Im your son, mum

If there's next life, I still want to be your son

I love you, just like how you love me so

Thank you, mum