what am I up to?

Someone please tell me what am I supposed to do?

Things can be so simple and yet so complicated
Its like a dream, a short moment...

awww..
I felt so tired..
...of everything that happens around me right now!
I feel so sick at this moment writing this post
Things that aint supposed to be just happened...

and what the hell am I really seeking for?
Oh, Im so confused and miserable right now...
I dont see things going well these few days...
Oh yeah, I dont even know what am I up to...

some ppl said u trying to seek for sympathy
some ppl said u trying to act like a kid
Let's see, the 2 bold words were so classical isnt it?

I realised words can actually hurt someone's feeling...
I think I'll learn from it before I get being hurt...
U know, some kind of teasing?

Oh yeah.. why would I wanna care so much bout this actually?
what's the point? what's the intention actually?
I make a start, and I make an ending... sounds good
Yeah, YiYin... I think I made up my mind...

Oh my god, my eyes are so sleepy till I realised things around me appearing so blur...
I no longer can differentiate what's correct and wrong...
and I even no longer can differentiate what's true anymore!
so, for this, I dont even know what am I suppose to do anymore!

mmm... I think I just do what supposed to, like... study I guess?
aww... 17years old BOY have lots of dream to achieve...
that 17 years old Boy have a promise to himself to embrace his dream!
time to change and carry out... what for getting himself so in such pain?
silly betul...

*no one is wrong... just the way u act was wrong....